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Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Day 3: Money, Money, Money.

How do I spend my money? 

Tell us then, what is your opinion?  Is it right to pay taxes to Caesar or not? -Mathew 22-17

It's late and I'm ready for bed so this is going to be short and sweet...
...I spend my money on life.
This took a lot of thought acutally. 
I've been staring at the computer screen for quite some time.
That's all I've got.
Where should I spend more of my God's money.
Probably on God.
Do I do that?
Not often enough.
What does this look like or mean?
Well, according to the bible I should tithe 10%.
THAT SEEMS LIKE A LOT!
What if I tithe 10% and then a charitable opportunity comes up and I give more...
...is this part of my 10%?
Now maybe I don't have to give as much next time.
I find tithing a full 10% is very difficult.
Honestly, I don't do it.
Why?
I'm selfish.
I want that money for myself.
Wait a second. 
My money isn't really mine.
AAARRGH! 
I'm going in circles.
I'm going to sleep on it. 
Teacher speaking in me...good thing this isn't a test.
I think I just failed.

Good night.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Kirkland Lacrosse

I feel like this is a record...two posts in one day.  However, I really wanted to share this picture of three students with their 6th grade teacher.  What I love about this picture is the smile on their faces.  If only they knew how much it means to their teacher to get invited to their games...and then the teacher shows up (with husband in tow)...and then the boys forgot that they are on the field playing, but they are waving frantically to get their teacher's attention, approval and acceptance.  That teacher adores her 6th graders and is beyond proud of them. 

How fun it was for Chad and I to go to a 5th-6th Kirkland Lacrosse game this past Saturday.  Thanks boys for inviting me and even though you lost, I saw how hard you played, your dedication and love for the sport.  I am proud of you!



Day 2: How Do Miracles Happen?

How do miracles happen? 
When the disciples saw this, they were amazed.  "How did the fig tree wither so quickly?" They asked.
-Mathew 21:20

This question is a lot tougher than yesterday's question.  I find this ironic that this happens to be one of the questions that our pastor encouraged us to seek this week...Holy Week (for those of you that aren't Christians, that's a catchy phrase that means the week leading up to Easter).  Ironic because I have recently been questioning this myself due to the challenges of not being able to get pregnant, a miracle within itself. 

I have a round about way of getting to the point of this question so please bare with me.  Chad and I have recently paired up with another couple dear to our hearts, David and Laurie Lischke, to co-lead a new life group at our church. We recently went to the Lischke's house for dinner to talk about where the heart of our life group has stemmed from and what that looks like in the form of people gathering together.  As we were talking, I had jotted down a couple of questions on a sticky note, one of which was related to miracles.  My main question was why have some people (presumably Christians) witnessed a miracle and I have not?  Are those that witness a miracle have a stronger, maybe more connected relationship with Christ?  Has He chosen them specifically to be witnesses to miracles and if He has, then why haven't I been chosen?  Am I not spiritual enough?  It's no secret that I'm not on the greatest terms with God right now, but really, why haven't I witnessed a miracle?  Maybe it's as simple as, ask and I shall receive?  Whoa, wait a minute, that scares me a little (or a lot). 

On the flip side of this, let's say that I did witness a miracle.  Honestly, would I believe it?  I think about the crazy Christians on t.v. or churches that are extremely charismatic and perform miracles every day on their church stage in front of thousands...I don't think I'd buy it.  However, if I try to picture what it might have been like when Jesus was walking the earth.  There were villages where smaller, more intimate gatherings occurred.  People were not out to prove anything or outdo one another.  There wasn't millions of dollars supporting these so-called miracles, but rather poor and non-egotistical people (Of course egos and rich vs. poor existed back then, but I don't think it was to the extreme as it is today).  Within these small villages and small crowds of people, more humbling experiences took place.  I might believe it then. 

How do miracles happen? Honestly, I don't know.  Nor do I have an answer...sorry to those that were hoping I would reveal an "a-ha" moment for them.  What I do know is what Christ did for me, is a miracle.  The humiliation, torture and abuse that Christ went through to save me (and you) is a miracle.  Why is this a miracle?  This is a miracle because Christ was physically abused to the point of almost not looking human-like.  I can't even begin to explain the magnitude of abuse.  He died on the cross and rose from the dead three days later.  The mere fact that someone can rise from the dead after what He went through...well, that my friends, is a miracle. 

Again, how do miracles happen?  I don't know.  And then I think about the spectrum of miracles that could happen...someone rising from the dead compared to all my students turning in an assignment on time (now that would be a miracle).  Do all miracles happen because Christ has performed the ultimate miracle?  Maybe so.  Maybe I need to be bold and ask God to open my heart to this subject and maybe even witness a miracle.  Maybe. 

Please contemplate today, how do miracles happen?

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Who Is Jesus?

Today our pastor challenged us to ask and think about daily questions throughout Holy Week.  My first thought was, it's Holy Week?  Then shortly after I thought how great it will be to have a daily subject to write and share about on my blog.  I then went back to my original thought, it's Holy Week?  I guess I had never heard that Christian "term" before (I feel like there are a lot of those).  I should preface my week's writings with I'm not a professional and I haven't been a Christian for very long; therefore, what I share this week is purely from my heart. 

The question of the day:  Who is Jesus? 

When Jesus entered Jerusalem, the whole city was stirred and asked, "who is this?  The crowds answered, "This is Jesus, the prophet from nazareth in Galilee." -Mathew 21:10-11

Who is Jesus?  This seems like a loaded question, but maybe I'm making it too difficult.  Then I laugh a little when I picture Jesus to be this sandle-footed-white-robe-wearing-Fabio-wind-blown-hair guy.  Honestly I'm not sure what Jesus physically looks like; however, I do know that Jesus is my Savior.  He loves me know matter what.  He protects me and guides me.  He is a teacher, a prophet, and a healer.  He is the son of God.  Jesus is the truth.

I fear Jesus, and I think that's okay.  Honestly, depending on how my life is going (or not going) I get angry with Jesus and I think this is okay too.  I need to remember to praise Him more often...daily.  My relationship with Christ is between Him and I.  For a while now it's been one sided  and I know Jesus is waiting.  He is waiting for me to turn to him.  His arms are open wide and He is calling to me, but I'm stubborn.  I'm breaking down and He knows this.  I'm thankful He is patient and understanding. 

Ask yourself, who is Jesus?  It may excite you, make you happy and/or down right scare you, but that's okay because He loves you. 

Peace of Mind

I've sat and tried to explain what the lyrics to this song mean to me, but I just can't.  They lyrics can speak for themselves. 

"Peace Of Mind"
Mindy Smith

I need peace of mind
And a hopeful heart
To lose this rage
And move out of the dark
I ain't looking for rainbows
Or shooting stars
Just some peace of mind
And a hopeful heart

I need a peace of mind
And a lullaby
Cause theres an angry voice
In my head tonight
Tellin' me to do things
That can't be right
I need peace of mind
And a lullaby

And a miracle
For this broken soul
A little miracle
For this broken soul

I need peace of mind
And gentle hand
As I try to change
The way I am
And God forgives me
When I can't
I need peace of mind
And a gentle hand

Or a miracle
For this broken soul
A little miracle
For this broken soul
I need peace of mind
And a hopeful heart